Sunday, March 24, 2013
The Life and Times Of A Single Mom: The Year of ME
The Life and Times Of A Single Mom: The Year of ME: Hey there bloggers, I wanted to share some new and interesting movements I am partaking in. I am challenging myself, for one full year, to...
The Year of ME
Hey there bloggers,
I wanted to share some new and interesting movements I am partaking in. I am challenging myself, for one full year, to focus entirely on self healing and self improvement. I am working on the healing the deepest most inner hurt and pain and turning all that negativity away for good. I am learning and working on accepting and giving off positive energy at all times.
After a recent heartbreaking event in my life, I started to evaluate the situation in its entirety. Then I came to a point where I just threw my hands up and said, "I'm done." I have been on a search ever to find out exactly why I continue this pattern of failed relationships. Could I really be the problem or was it even deeper than I could have ever imagined? I was in search for some spiritual healing and knowledge.
After countless efforts on trying to find this understanding on my own, I came in contact with someone I'd like to call a spiritual healer aka. an angel:) She showed me that I had so much left over hurt and bottled up pain which I had never dealt with. I never took the time to fully heal from the big events that damaged me in some way, shape, form or fashion. She went on to explain to me that I had to heal from those events completely to be able to let all of the negativity go. I had to be able to let all of the bad thoughts, hurt, resentment, sadness, and anger GO! This takes a lot of work, focus and concentration. She taught me that it starts with the understanding that our creator/GOD has put me here for a purpose whether it be great or small. If you can accept GOD and his love, everything else will follow. Choose to do right, when everything around you tells you to do wrong. Choose to be the example or the leader instead of the problem or the follower. So, I made a choice for the first time in my life to make the RIGHT choice for me. I am taking time to heal and learn about ME. To explore parts of me that I never knew existed. I am also sharing my positive experiences and energy with others.
I'm on an amazing journey. Many people don't ever see the light until its too late. I choose to see the light and shine with it. I am making a change to love GOD and Myself first before I can love anyone else. I am doing it right this time.
Keep me in your prayers;)
I wanted to share some new and interesting movements I am partaking in. I am challenging myself, for one full year, to focus entirely on self healing and self improvement. I am working on the healing the deepest most inner hurt and pain and turning all that negativity away for good. I am learning and working on accepting and giving off positive energy at all times.
After a recent heartbreaking event in my life, I started to evaluate the situation in its entirety. Then I came to a point where I just threw my hands up and said, "I'm done." I have been on a search ever to find out exactly why I continue this pattern of failed relationships. Could I really be the problem or was it even deeper than I could have ever imagined? I was in search for some spiritual healing and knowledge.
After countless efforts on trying to find this understanding on my own, I came in contact with someone I'd like to call a spiritual healer aka. an angel:) She showed me that I had so much left over hurt and bottled up pain which I had never dealt with. I never took the time to fully heal from the big events that damaged me in some way, shape, form or fashion. She went on to explain to me that I had to heal from those events completely to be able to let all of the negativity go. I had to be able to let all of the bad thoughts, hurt, resentment, sadness, and anger GO! This takes a lot of work, focus and concentration. She taught me that it starts with the understanding that our creator/GOD has put me here for a purpose whether it be great or small. If you can accept GOD and his love, everything else will follow. Choose to do right, when everything around you tells you to do wrong. Choose to be the example or the leader instead of the problem or the follower. So, I made a choice for the first time in my life to make the RIGHT choice for me. I am taking time to heal and learn about ME. To explore parts of me that I never knew existed. I am also sharing my positive experiences and energy with others.
I'm on an amazing journey. Many people don't ever see the light until its too late. I choose to see the light and shine with it. I am making a change to love GOD and Myself first before I can love anyone else. I am doing it right this time.
Keep me in your prayers;)
Friday, March 1, 2013
So Hard To Say Goodbye
Hey there blogger,
I haven't written in awhile, mostly because I have been in the transition of moving out of the place I had called home. Life as I know it is so blurry and confusing. It's only been two days since my move and I have been feeling free in being able to mourn my loss of the one I called my love. To me, this breakup has felt like a death. I feel like I have lost my lover and my best friend. But to me a break-up is worse than a death, because the person who leaves is making the decision to do just that. Then comes the part that I dread --- having to say goodbye and moving on without him.
Saying goodbye is such a challenge for me. I don't consider myself one of those women who just try to hold on for as long as they can, until they find someone else. I also do not consider myself someone who is desperate. I consider myself someone a strong, loyal, dedicated, independent woman, who wants nothing more than to make a family for myself. Letting go of someone you honestly thought may be "the one" is a lot harder than I thought it would be. There are so many "almosts" out there, that is hard to differentiate which one is which. I assume that with age and wisdom, you learn how to tell them apart.
So, I have said goodbye and we have parted ways. He is doing him and I am doing me. I am looking forward to my new adventure. I am focusing on me, myself, and I. You know, being a single mom on top of going through all of this emotional stuff is a doozie. For all of those moms out there who are struggling with a life changing event such as a break-up or a loss of a loved one, GOD IS WITH US. Keep the faith and stay strong. I'm going it through it with you.
Say goodbye, move on, and get out there and LIVE! Thats what I am on my way to do:)
Good Luck and God Bless;)
I haven't written in awhile, mostly because I have been in the transition of moving out of the place I had called home. Life as I know it is so blurry and confusing. It's only been two days since my move and I have been feeling free in being able to mourn my loss of the one I called my love. To me, this breakup has felt like a death. I feel like I have lost my lover and my best friend. But to me a break-up is worse than a death, because the person who leaves is making the decision to do just that. Then comes the part that I dread --- having to say goodbye and moving on without him.
Saying goodbye is such a challenge for me. I don't consider myself one of those women who just try to hold on for as long as they can, until they find someone else. I also do not consider myself someone who is desperate. I consider myself someone a strong, loyal, dedicated, independent woman, who wants nothing more than to make a family for myself. Letting go of someone you honestly thought may be "the one" is a lot harder than I thought it would be. There are so many "almosts" out there, that is hard to differentiate which one is which. I assume that with age and wisdom, you learn how to tell them apart.
So, I have said goodbye and we have parted ways. He is doing him and I am doing me. I am looking forward to my new adventure. I am focusing on me, myself, and I. You know, being a single mom on top of going through all of this emotional stuff is a doozie. For all of those moms out there who are struggling with a life changing event such as a break-up or a loss of a loved one, GOD IS WITH US. Keep the faith and stay strong. I'm going it through it with you.
Say goodbye, move on, and get out there and LIVE! Thats what I am on my way to do:)
Good Luck and God Bless;)
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