Friday, March 1, 2013

So Hard To Say Goodbye

Hey there blogger,

I haven't written in awhile, mostly because I have been in the transition of moving out of the place I had called home. Life as I know it is so blurry and confusing. It's only been two days since my move and I have been feeling free in being able to mourn my loss of the one I called my love. To me, this breakup has felt like a death. I feel like I have lost my lover and my best friend. But to me a break-up is worse than a death, because the person who leaves is making the decision to do just that. Then comes the part that I dread --- having to say goodbye and moving on without him.

Saying goodbye is such a challenge for me. I don't consider myself one of those women who just try to hold on for as long as they can, until they find someone else. I also do not consider myself someone who is desperate. I consider myself someone a strong, loyal, dedicated, independent woman, who wants nothing more than to make a family for myself. Letting go of someone you honestly thought may be "the one" is a lot harder than I thought it would be. There are so many "almosts" out there, that is hard to differentiate which one is which. I assume that with age and wisdom, you learn how to tell them apart.

So, I have said goodbye and we have parted ways. He is doing him and I am doing me. I am looking forward to my new adventure. I am focusing on me, myself, and I. You know, being a single mom on top of going through all of this emotional stuff is a doozie. For all of those moms out there who are struggling with a life changing event such as a break-up or a loss of a loved one, GOD IS WITH US. Keep the faith and stay strong. I'm going it through it with you.

Say goodbye, move on, and get out there and LIVE! Thats what I am on my way to do:)

Good Luck and God Bless;)

2 comments:

  1. Good girl! I am proud of you! You deserve the best otherwise you move on no matter how hard it is, I know you can handle that!!! Sending Love!

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  2. Thank you Yules! I really appreciate it:) You are right. I can handle that! lol Love you too;)

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